So here I sit staring at the photo picture above actually envisioning myself that weight again. That is how I am meant to look. That picture was taken the night of my Bachelorette dinner three years ago, mere days before my wedding. Since then I have had a baby and packed on the pounds.
Truth be told I have always had to struggle with my weight. In one way or another I am usually obsessed with food, whether I'm eating or not eating it. I come by it honestly. I come from a family of foodies. My parents are thin, but both work at it. My brother was once teeny, tiny but he's now heavy. I have a few times in my life ballooned up to a size 12, but I am usually struggling with about 10 pounds. At just under 5' 7" I feel best at a size 6 or 8.
If I had a dollar for every pound I have lost…because in my lifetime I have been gaining and losing the same 12 pounds over and over again. I have seriously probably lost over 150 lbs. in my life. I remember leaving for camp one summer at the tender age of 11 and my mother telling me she would give me $10 for every pound I lost. Yes, I needed to loose about 6 pounds, but at that age I would be rich if I had $100! So the camp grew concerned when I lost 12 pounds and would no longer allow me to bring a book to the table and made me have a cookie snack at night. My mother was proud, I had money and I was thin! However, admittedly it probably wasn't a great life lesson.
My friends in school used to tease me because I knew the calorie content to practically every food there was and I was always it seemed on some crazy diet. I know some were even concerned I would one day develop a full-blown eating disorder. When I graduated from college I had an extra 20 pounds (mostly a beer gut) to contend with, so I joined Nutrisystem and successfully lost the weight that summer. Then I became a gym rat. I still love to work out and sweat about 5 days a week and even became certified as a spinning instructor almost 15 years ago. I taught up until I became pregnant.
I digress. Working in fashion and being obsessed with clothes means I need to be able to wear the clothes or it's pure torture for me. Yet, I also love food. Therein lies my struggle. Yet, I was able to maintain a healthy weight and lifestyle for the years leading up to my wedding.
Once I was married my husband and I were focused on getting pregnant and for us, that meant fertility treatments. The pounds started to pack on. So by the time I actually did successfully become pregnant, I was already up a good 20 pounds. I tipped the scales a bit over 200 pounds before I gave birth and the baby weighed just under 8 pounds!
So while I have a beautiful and healthy son eight months ago and have managed to lose over 40 pounds, I still have a way to go to fit back into the clothes that are sitting in our storage closet. Most of my prized wardrobe is in there. So you see, my goal isn't to go out and buy a whole new wardrobe, it's to fit into the one I already own…and feel comfortable in my skin again.
So now I'm on day 3 of my three-month Nutrisystem diet and so far, it has been really easy and I am unbelievably satiated. Not only that, the online tools are amazing. I can keep my daily log online, plan grocery lists to supplement the plan, chat with others on the same journey for encouragement and even shop for next month's food. Wow has this program changed!
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-Lauren Dimet Waters
Wearing above: dress, BCBG; shoes, YSL Tributes
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